Phoenix Entertainment and Development

Phoenix Entertainment and Development

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

2 Years of near silence

I felt like I lost everything.  The one in a million idea I thought would give me everything I ever wanted in life, was gone.  Months of work went down the drain when we had to factory reset.  I was devastated and didn't think I would ever be able to come up with another idea like that again.  It took me two years before I was able to come up with anything else to write about.  One idea stuck out in my mind, but could never do anything with it. 

By 2008, my life took a drastic turn for the best (although I took it as the worst at the time).  My relationship ended with my ex and I moved back home to Long Island.  I had to start over from scratch with my life.  I moved back in with my parents, my job botched my transfer and I was without a job. 

There was one brightside to the situation.  There was a desktop computer at my parents house that had an A Drive.  I was able to work on the Phoenix Blade again.  I pulled up the file for the first time in two years.  There was only two feelings that ran through me.  Happiness to see my work again, and anger at how my writing once was.  Somehow I managed to improve my writing ability during those two years and one failed attempt at writing a different story.  But now I felt rejuventated.  I had my original writing idea back in my hands; ready to be remodeled to my current writing style.  I felt alive again.  I felt like a Phoenix.

2 comments:

  1. I know exactly this feeling. I've been trying to get off my feet with writing a novel for the last two years. At first, I had one singular idea in mind. Then it evolved, changed, and I now had multiple ideas for novels. The problem? Depression. No job. Feeling worthless. Wrap them into one package and you have the ultimate writer's block. Definitely need some inspiration.

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  2. Writer's block is a tough one to get through. There is no specific way that everyone can get over it. However, each person has their own way of dealing with it. I don't believe anyone should ever feel worthless, because people contribute so much in life without realizing it. Writing is the best way to deal with stress, but it doesn't have to focus on the one idea. Let your thoughts create new ideas for other books, poems, or movie scripts. Sometimes when you get stuck, it could mean an opportunity to focus on another path

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